Hi precious ones! I hope this post finds you in good spirits. For this week’s post we have a detailed description of fighting mental battles of worthlessness, inadequacy and low self-esteem . Our guest writer is Lizzette Burke, a lady with such a beautiful spirit and a kind heart. Her experiences and how she overcame them are featured below! All credits for word and photos after this paragraph are given to said author. Remember to leave your comments and follow Precious Thoughts Press for more inspiration in overcoming the trials of life.
If my pillows could talk they would testify of the many nights they were watered by tears. Feelings of worthlessness, inadequacy and low self-esteem plagued me behind closed door. I could not get over the fact that I wasn’t planned for and that my parents were simply having fun when I came about. I was an unwanted child; a mistake, those were what echoed loudest in my lonely moments which were many. I failed to accept compliments of beauty, love and achievements. I was angry with God for waking me up many mornings as I longed for death.
I was crippled with fear. Tormented and perplexed with anxiety attacks. Saved but defeated. More than a conqueror but conquered. I tried to believe God but I was hindered by my own foolish ideologies. Why does a good and loving God allows bad things to happen to the innocent? I couldn’t fathom it. I was in constant battle reconciling His truth with my own vain deceitful ideologies. I struggled. It was years of cycles; being high in the Spirit and then very low in depression, believing then questioning and loving then fearing. I had to break free from this mental enslavement.
I could no longer live in deprivation of peace, hope and love! It was promised to me and I must have it at all cost. “Foolishness is bound up in the heart of a child; but the rod of correction shall drive it far from him.” (Proverbs 22:12, KJV). My heart was no different and it was hardship and struggles that God used as a rod of correction for me. I experienced rejections, financial challenges, health issues and the list goes on and on. It was in these seasons of life the content of my heart was revealed and through prayer, fasting, godly counselling and accepting the truth of God’s word I overcame.
The Power of Confession
I also learned the power of confession. The enemy takes advantage of things we hold in secret and cripples us by magnifying those things. Our mistakes, our shortcomings, our weaknesses; those things nobody knows about. Those are the things he uses to enslave us and deprive us from God’s best for our lives. But this is what the Bible says; “confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed…” (James 5:16, KJV). There is healing in confession, learn to open your mouth or put pen to paper and publicly disgrace the enemy. He cannot hold you bound by what you have exposed but the opposite is true.
Grace and Peace.
You don’t have to fight alone. Enjoy this moving song by Jonathan McReynolds, ‘Cycles’ here, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6o2zd8VDHN0 .
Until next time, remember you are precious.